I’m the kind of person who freezes when shocked. I can’t talk and I can’t move. I can’t say no. I’m definitely not saying yes. Each time I’ve been sexually assaulted or raped, and there have been multiple times, I have just frozen and gone into my own head for a while, trying not to focus on my body – which is also why I hate gyno checks, smear tests, blood tests and dentist visits and anything else I don’t want to focus on physically.