I was 14, drinking and smoking heavily with a group of girls my age and 17+ year old boys. I was very out of it and puking in the toilets when the guys arrived and I was put to bed very early in the night. One of the guys I vaguely knew, later climbed into my bed and somehow we had sex. He was “shocked” in the morning to find out I was a virgin because apparently, I had told him to use a condom.
I always felt like I’d been taken advantage of, but I didn’t think about it for very long because I felt like I’d given a nod of consent when I told him to use protection.